A few weeks ago I wrote on Habits and I thought I would delve deeper into my habit of spending time with Jesus today….
Most mornings one of the first things that I do is to sit up in bed and sit with God. I need his presence. I need to know that I am not alone and by sitting with him I remember that He is with me. I slowly wake up, allowing myself to stay under my covers probably too long, and then after a trip to the potty(as quietly as I can tip toe so I don’t wake up my kiddos), I sit up in bed. I slowly allow my mind to wake up as I stare out the window in front of me. Sometimes I have an hour (these are my favorite times) and other times I have five minutes because my children are already awake and I have told them that Mommy needs at least five minutes with Jesus.
This morning, I finished my time with both of my children on my lap. I say this to let you know that this is not a perfect process. Far from it. I am not the devotion Queen. Actually, I don’t even like calling it that. I am a quality time and words of affirmation in the love languages that most fill me up. Spending time with Jesus covers both of those love languages. It is something I have decided is important so I try to do it everyday.
It now feels like a special time that is just mine and His. Sometimes I feel a smile come to my face simply sitting up and doing nothing for a few minutes. It can be hard to just sit, but even if it’s for a moment, its powerful. Honestly, I can get more from letting Him be God by sitting, its as if He is infusing me with strength. “Be still and know He is God” this is how I begin.
Then, I usually have a book or a bible study to go through. I am better with a loose plan because then I stay with it. I have something to tangibly hold. I have something that might even have fill in the blanks and being a natural student this works for me. There usually is a scripture within the material that jumps off the page to me and then I will stay with it longer.
Last week I remembered how much I have liked meditating on scripture in the past. I haven’t done it in a while so why not return to it? I wondered what to meditate on. I always seem to return to John 15. I get the basic gist of the passage but the details are still a mystery to me. John 15 it was.
He says, “Abide in me and I will abide in you.” I have tried to wrap my mind around this for awhile to no avail. Then, I came to this version, “Live in me, as I live in you.” This is more relatable to me.
Live in me.
Generally, I wonder, how in the world can I live in God? Live in me. I have repeated this phrase when I remember it through the day. Often, it is when I am on the toilet! Being honest here. I am a mom and sometimes the bathroom is a quiet place, where I stop and actually remember to meditate on this verse! As I have, it has become less overwhelming or impossible feeling. Live in me as I teach my kids. Live in me as I wash the dishes. Live with me. Allow your Father God to join you as you do your daily things and you are with your people. Give your Father permission to be your homebase. He is your beginning place and your end. He is your all. Live in me.
As I live in you. The God of the universe lives IN me. I believe this is something we are never meant to wrap my mind around. It is something to sit in awe with. It is something to figuratively hold hands with and take comfort in. He lives in me. This is why I am never alone, because I really am not. As I live in you. As I try to new things or walk through new territory for me, He is with me. I have his power in me. The other day was one of those overwhelming days with my kids where I had to remember this parenting gig is a process, and not done in a day. It was during this day that I remembered God has patience as one of his fruit and since He is in me, I have it too. His patience is in me. As I live in you.
The crazy thing is the more I live in God, such as meditating on this verse, the more He lives in me, because His words, His heart is in me. I am not here to talk theology, my mind is not wired that way but more in relationship. What I do know is the more of me, the more time I spend with God, the more He is realized in me.
This relationship is worth pursuing is basically what I am using all of these words to tell you.
Wondering how you can fit time in your day to sit with God?
Begin small. Give what time you have. I have sat with God during my first child’s naptime. At that time I had never had a regular morning habit. When I had my second child, that time disappeared, so in one stage I would put my baby in her baby swing while my older one napped so I could have that time. When the kids are eating breakfast or right after you put the kids in bed could be other times. Do you commute? Listen to a audio Bible, then stop it and meditate on it. Pray from it. See where there is a crack in your day and begin with five minutes for a month. Then move on from there. Try different times until one sticks.
Be You. You may not be a sitting type of person. Go on a walk with worship music or an audio bible and stop it when a line or verse feels like what you need right now. Turn it off and as you walk or run meditate on it. Then, pray it. Perhaps you like using your hands. Have a Bible close by to your craft project or your kitchen sink. As you are washing dishes or knitting that line, read a verse, meditate on it and pray. Remember who you are, what you love and meet with God right there.
Be forgiving. There will be days you sleep too late. That is me. There will be days you may forget or days that are so very full. Forgive yourself. Do not linger in shame but wrap yourself in grace. You are ok. You are still loved by your Father. It’s not about performance or accomplishment but about being present with God. So, right when you feel the yuck of shame, begin again right there. You can always begin again.
I will say that again, you can always begin again.
Live in me, and I live with you. There, that is your invitation.