As I walk out our side door this afternoon with my kids, I breathe in the fresh air as an elixir. As one who has been stuck in the house for a week with what we can only guess as the flu, the blue sky, the trees and the grass feel like an open expanse of freedom to me. I look into the sky and feel like I could get lost in it, in a good way.
I have never had a “word for the year” before but this year I decided to try it. I decided if one came easily I would try it, but if none came, I wouldn’t force it. So, on my couch one afternoon, vulnerable came to mind. I have desired in this season to be vulnerable, something that is so not always easy, right? But vulnerable felt like kind of a complex word to focus on so I looked up vulnerable in Webster. One of the synonyms for vulnerable was the word open. This was much more simple and easier to focus my mind on. So, OPEN, it was. Being open feels scary in a way but then it is also very much like the blue sky that I stared into this afternoon. It is freedom. This is what I want, freedom.
Be open to days looking different or seasons not meeting my expectations. For that matter,may I be open to let go of expectations when I realize I even have them. This is what I realized I needed to do this very morning.
Be open to lingering longer with a kid at bedtime, does rushing make it really go any faster? Yes, I want my own time. Perhaps being open is really saying yes. Saying yes to what is important. In this case, its saying yes to the sacred moments before bed with my child. My own time is important too, but I do see when I don’t try to rush, it goes pretty much at the same speed but my soul is in a better place!
Be open to go slower when I want to go fast and go fast when I want to go slow.
Be open to the different, CHANGE, the uncomfortable, the good,and the truth.
Be open to love and the Word and looking in the eye when I want to look away.
Be open to imperfection, and the rest and beauty it will bring. Perfection is not all what it is cracked up to be.
Be open to think new thoughts.
Be open to be gentle with myself when I want to be my own harsh critic. Can I not choose to be my own cheerleader already?!
Be open for things to be better and more beautiful than I could ever imagine.
Anna McParlan of @alonginlandsea on Instagram said this, “We grow most in the seasons of surrender-when we release our clenched fists and let God plant exactly what He wants in our open hands. It will bloom in its time. It always does.”.
Yes to that. So, here I am, with my open hands, my open heart and my open mind. Here I am, open.